Living with Hashimotos Disease sucks!

     As some of you may know I have a condition called Hashimoto's Disease (HD).  HD is a thyroid condition that causes your immune system to attack your thyroid gland.  I was first diagnosed about a year and a half ago.  My symptoms were extreme fatigue, anxiety, depression, increased sensitivity to cold, muscle pain and weakness, and extreme weight gain (30 lbs.).  I have since found an amazing endocrinologist who has been instrumental in getting me on the correct dosage of medication and making sure that my symptoms are managed.  The damn 30lbs. are still here though.

    I have been reading a lot lately about how diet can help improve your symptoms in hashimotos, and your hashimotos weight gain.  It is hard to work out because I am usually tired.  My therapist has recommended yoga.  I was really excited about it, so I bought a mat and a set of dvds.  I am still excited, but have yet to start.

     I have been seeing a therapist because hashimotos has really done a number on me.  Many people, my family and myself included, don't have a clue how many things the thyroid controls.  Your digestion, temperature, joints, muscles, reproduction, metabolism, and brain all are controlled by the thyroid.  When my thyroid stopped working properly so did my brain.  I have always been the smart girl.  I can't sing, can't dance, don't have a damn talent to my name, but I was smart!  After doing so well in my masters program I decided that I was definitely going to get my PhD.  Now that my brain has been ruined that dream is gone.  I no longer have the memory I used to, and I don't think the way I used to be able to.

     I'm not gonna lie, there are days when I cry and get pissed because I am not the me I used to be.  Most days I just tell myself that this is just the way it is.  I firmly believe that everything happens for a reason.  God would not have this happen to me unless there were a reason, so I need to suck it up and deal.  Most days I do.  Some days, though, it really just sucks!